ANOTHER FALLEN SOLDIER :(
Hello Dear Ones.....well....it is a very sad day for me. My family has now been (unwantingly) joined with the ever growing group of families grieving the loss of a loved one due to the war. Last night I received the news that my Cousin Tech Srgt. Robbie Payne lost his life. WAAAAAAAAA. I could take all day listing his time spent, actions and duties performed, and acomplishments achieved during his many years serving and protecting our freedom, our rights, our lives as an American. This cousin of mine endured much as a soldier...you see our country spent much money and many years training him to do one thing........kill. Several years during his career as a Soldier were spent in Special Services as a Sniper. He was the one that went out and ahead of everyone else....scoping out the enemies territory and taking out as many of them as possible before the rest of the troop swept in. His bravery and his accurracy earned him many medals and awards....but it also brought many demons and nightmares. My Uncle (retired military himself) commented "the things my son has had to do, the choices my son has been forced to make will haunt him for the rest of his life. God give him peace!" Oh Dear God send your Peace to my Uncle Rex now in HIS time of despair!!!
The last time I seen my cousin was a couple of years ago at our Family reunion. Now Robbie has always been the "quiet, reserved" type. But I had noticed a drastic change. He was completely withdrawn and had the look of stalked prey in his beautiful blue eyes. Within those eyes was much distrust, torment, sorrow, and misery as well. When he heard that my Son Wesley was considering enlisting with the Army, he advised my "then"19 year old son...."Wesley, reconsider your decision. Use the intellegence you've been blessed with to create and bring forth unity and harmony, not to create new ways of bringing pain, suffering, and destruction. Use your strong self-will to make your own choices, to pave your own road in life, instead of becoming the governments puppet, jumping, shooting, and killing upon their command. Allow the love, mercy, and compassion that God has instilled within your spirit to grow, and flow out to your fellow man and let not prejudice, distrust, and hatred harden your heart to the plith of those less fortunate. For war affects most negatively not the ones who wage it, but more often than not, the innoccent ones who end up having it waged against." Well...my son Srgt. Wesley Eugene Poucher has now served 2 years of his 4 year term and he shared with me (the last time we spoke over the phone) that he wished he had followed the advice of (as Wesley calls him) "his Uncle Robbie" but alas....it's too late. I know not if this entry makes actual sense or not....I'm still in a bit of shock over the news. I just knew that I had to get some of my thoughts and emotions out. All I can do now is pray "Lord God, send your peace that passeth all understanding to my whole family, especially to my Uncle Rex, Aunt Brenda, and cousin Ricky during their time of loss. Let them KNOW that you are still there and comfort them Lord...comfort them. Lord I ask that you bless ALLLL of our military with your grace, favor, and safety. Lord I ask that you keep my son Wesley in the palm of your hand, let no firey dart from the enemy harm him, send a legion of Angels before him clearing his path and making it safe. Place a hedge of protection around him and bring him home without one hair on his head being harmed. More importantly....let not this war harden his heart or torment his mind...in the name of Jesus I ask, I receive and I thank you...Amen"
Well Dear Ones....I must now attempt to get some work done. I pray God's grace, mercy, and abounding love be upon you all. Until fingers meet keyboard, and eyes meet screen again.....God bless. xo Kitty
