THE DAY TIME STOOD STILL

Hello Dear Ones!!   Well I am sure everyone out there is running ragged trying to get their homes decorated, get food for the christmas meal bought, and get gifts bought and wrapped to put under the tree.  Each year it seems like it gets crazier, and angrier than the year before (has been like this for several years now that I can remember)  Welll....all of my 6 children are no longer the wee ones that get deceived year after year with the "Man in the red suit" story, so Christmas is going to be celebrated the way that "I" feel it should be.  There is not going to be any back breaking decorating just so "my place looks better than the Jones".  No acquiring a debt larger than our nations just to buy and give expensive items that are not really a neccessity...just a "want."  We mere mortals, with our raging hunger to spend spend spend have got things sooo backwards.  YES this is a time to gather with loved ones to celebrate.  But it isn't a time to be celebrating ourselves.  The worlds view of Christmas ... oh yea ... pls 4give ... I forgot it is now "politically incorrect" to say "Christmas"... it is now "Happy Holidays"   ROFLROFL  give me a break  ;)   Any how.  The Holidays have caused many people who are new in the Christian faith to falter.  Why?  Because the worlds idea of "Christmas" is so off course to what the true meaning is, and if a person is not solidly grounded in their christian faith, it may cause (and unfortunately has) a sour taste in a new Christians mouth, and if they witness no difference in a Christians way of celebrating and the worlds way of celebrating then I'm sure the thought "whats the point" might just cross their minds.  It would mine.    So this is how my "Christmas"  is going to be celebrated this year.  Our church is having a special service Dec. 24th.  We are going to spend time hearing about the true reason for this special "HOLYday" then we are going to have a time of praise and worship thanking God for the "birth"... the "gift" of his only son Jesus (remember...Christmas is suppose to be about celebrating the BIRTHDAY of Jesus our "Christ") then we are sharing in communion.  After the service we are then going to gather at home for a celebration dinner, and fellowship with loved ones.  I honestly don't know if there will even be gift exchange amongst us...I mean honestly to me....Christmas isn't about the gifts that we give "each other"... it is about the gift "we receive"...and I don't mean that diamond ring we seen that we absolutely love  ;)   no...it's about receiving the "gift" of Jesus.  That was the purpose of his birth...for him to die that we may have eternal life. 

In closing I just want to say to all of you out there that are feeling sad, over-whelmed, haggard, pinched, angry, or whatever emotions that may be over-whelming you.....STOP.....take a moment and breath...then remember what this time of year represents.  Remember the whole purpose of "Christmas" and I suggest trying what myself and many other followers of Christ are doing...cut yourself away from the worlds way of celebrating this Holy occassion and make it more personal and spiritual...above all else...let not the world tarnish your faith, and your spiritual beliefs....that is putting your faith in Man and mankind instead of putting it in God. 

Til fingers meet key-board, and eyes meet screen again.....MERRY  CHRISTmas!!!!!  I pray God's grace, mercy, love, protection, and blessings upon each and everyone of you.  To my friends that follow the ramblings on my blog....I love you all....special prayers to you and your loved ones.  

SADDNESS:

Why is it that the Holidays are so sad for me??? I have many things to be thankful for, and many things I praise God for...yet I am sad.  Memories crowd my mind...pain spears my heart, and the tears flow.  A touch from loved ones passed on, brings a sense of peace for a moment...letting my mind as well as my heart know that they are still with me...yet still the tears flow.  The howling of the wind draws the sound of my souls wails into its symphony, so the world knows not my sorrow.  One thing I know for sure...the pain lasts not forever, and eventually I'll wake, to a new tomorrow, but for now I'll embrace the saddness within, let it run it's course instead of fighting it, then purge my body of it with a few more tears.

WHY?????

Why has society decided to do away with "Christ" and christmas???  HAPPY HOLIDAYS??!!!   ARE YOU KIDDING??!!  I think I am doing away with the worlds "Happy Holiday celebration" on Dec. 25, and celebrating the birth of Christ with a private birthday party on Dec. 24...no one knows the exact date of Jesus' birth anyhow, so tell me WHY we HAVE to celebrate it on Dec. 25????  Let the world have Dec. 25...they've corrupted the holiness of it anyhow with Santa, and all the hoopla .... NOOOO  VIRGINA, THERE REALLY  ISN'T A SANTA CLAUS!!!!

WHY do 15, and 17 year olds think they have all the answers, and that they are DUE and OWED being treated as an adult???? Then they attempt to hold that over your head...."Let me come and go as I want, stay out as late as I want, ask no questions of me, put no rules, bounderies, or expectations on me, and give me give me give me the money and means to do that and DON'T YOU DARE TELL ME NO, plus feed me, house me, TAKE CARE OF ME, but let me act like I am an adult......if you don't.....I'll leave your world....I'll go with someone, and somewhere that I CAN do that." (not exact words said, but actions and other words say it loud and clear)  What do you say to that???? How do you respond??  I am not lowering my standards, my morals as a parent to do that.  They are still minor children living under my care and responsibility, and I am and will stick to my guns.  I am still DA MOMMA and it's still MY WAY ;)

PROUD MOTHER!!

My 22 year old son Wesley is graduating from Army Basic Training at 9 a.m. Friday Dec. 2, 2005.  This is a prime example of a tear jerking moment.  This is my babyyyyy.  Wesley and I have had a painful relationship since the day of his birth.  He is the one that is the hardest for me to reach.  He holds my heart in the palm of his hand and I don't think he has a clue that it is there.  I feel that in his opinion  his mother "abandoned him when he needed her most, was never there for him, so there is no need for her now."  I could be wrong....I pray I am...but there have been episodes in the past that seeded those feelings in my mind and spirit.  Oh how I pray that those feelings will be over came, and what ever is still there (and I know it is....he is my son....i have a connection and forever will...i feel it) between us will be tore down, for with the condition of our world today...We know not what or where tomorrow will bring to or put Wesley......"I love you son so much more than you will ever know.  You are the beat of my heart, and every day you are and will be in my thoughts and prayers, God Bless you and keep you safe in the palm of his hand."

Take care dear ones, and till fingers meet keyboard, and eyes meet screen again....God Bless.

HELLLOOO  DEAR ONES  :)

Yes it has been a while since I've posted, much has been going on in my life.  I am finally out of the "House of Mold" and into my new place...it's so nice, and it's so peaceful here.  I've had pretty much nothing but trouble with SBC (my phone & internet) but FINALLY they got all the probs and bugs worked out and I am back in business  ;)   lol  Anyhow since settling in, I've already had a weekend family cookout (with my husbands family) and to my suprise it went wonderful, everyone had a great time, and nooooo probs.  (fights, arguments, ect.)  The best news of all is that my first born child, my 28 yr old son Eric, has moved up here with me, hubby, and oldest daughter, and we have been having the best time "learning" each other  :) He and I both just shake our heads in amazement at how much the two of us are alike...in thought...actions...feelings, truely amazing.  I find it quite funny, and it has turned into my new fav. inside joke  ;)  that out of 8 kids (my 6 and my husbands 2) it is the 2 oldest that have moved back home   rofl.  We will be going out to West Texas very soon to pick up and bring home my 15 yr old son.  It concerns me because he has reached that place in life where HE thinks he is now a man, and wants to buck up against authority...this is not fair to my husband who is a hard worker, wonderful provider, and cares very much for Paul (my 15 yr old).  We had problems in the past (when Paul was 13) with Paul fighting against my husbands authority, and I will not stand by and allow a 15 yr old BOY disrespect an adult that way...not ANY adult, but especially a hard working man that has done nothing but be there for him, be good to him and provide for him, soooo....I am in heavy prayer that God will do a work in Pauls spirit, and sweeten it towards Roy (my husband) and bring love, peace, and harmony into the family.  I AM excited though about Paul and Eric bonding as brothers...I truely feel it will do them both much good.  Sooo dear ones I ask that you continue to lift our family up in prayer, and pray specifically for the situation with Paul coming home.  Well dear ones...I've a ton of things to take care of today so I'm going to end this for now.  Dear Ionuca...I want to send out a personal word to you..."Thank you so very much for sending me a hello and letting me know that you were concerned during the time that I have been down.  I am back now and hope to be posting at full speed  ;)  I pray you, your family, your country and it's people are all doing well, ya'll were never far from my thoughts and always in my prayers.  God Bless you dear one."    Well All...until fingers meet keyboard, and eyes meet screen again...laters.